• Psyduck

I'm not a huge fan of Pokémon or anything. But my FAVOURITE Pokémon is Psyduck. To be honest, I just like the way it looks. It's so goofy, and has such a weirdly specific charm. Honestly they make me smile whenever I see them. 10/10 Pokémon. But I wouldn't use one in a game ever lol. 15 days left until my birthday! I'm scared of growing older, because I don't know what the future holds. But I do life anyway. At a very young time in my life. I began to grasps the fact that not everything could be in my control. I struggled with the fact that I was powerless in the throes of reality. But began to find comfort in realising that I still have control over myself. And that is what truly matters. Planning on reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. I actually know a little about that book. Marcus Aurelius kept a diary, and never intended on sharing the threads of his thought written on what I'm assuming is some sort of vellum, or paper. It made me think that in this modern day and age. As people, we do everything performatively. We do almost everything for others. But very rarely do we truly do something for ourselves, without it being overtly selfish. Marcus Aurelius taught me that the best thing you can do for yourself, is to create art that no one else should see. To care for yourself just as much as you care for others. I've started doing push ups again recently. Not anything too crazy. But it's gotten to the point where my triceps are starting to balloon out. Lol. Every time I go to the bathroom. I pay myself with 10 push ups. And honestly, It's helping my self confidence. The Idea that I can stick to this little thing, for myself, without anyone else knowing, or caring. And it have a positive effect on me really makes me sorta happy. I hope that being happy can get easier.