• Harvest Moon

I had a dream that a girl who I liked from high school messaged me out of nowhere, just to talk. It was so surreal, because I kinda daydream about things like that, and then I guess it's gotten to the point where I start dreaming about it too? I'm not sure what that means for me psychologically, but I think I need to be careful when developing delusional, one-sided para-social relationships with people who I haven't even spoken to. Literally my only contact with this specific person was me saying "Birthday" with a monkey emoji to wish her happy birthday? And even that was just so disappointing on my end. We've never spoken in person before, but somehow from the first time I saw her, I couldn't take my eyes off her. And it makes me really disappointed in myself. Because at this point, my idea of who she is in my head is unfair to the person she is in reality. And it makes me feel like I have even objectified her. What a strange line of thinking maybe? I talked to someone about that, and they obviously agreed with me that dreaming about texting someone you've never spoken to before is downright grave. I'm a big introvert, and I like spending time in my room, listening to music and embracing solace. I don't even want to hang out with my friends too much, not because of them ,but because of myself. I'm honestly just a homebody through and through. In other news. I used to play this game on my 3DS as a kid where you could farm crops, and sell them for money. And every now and then, there would be a festival where you could buy a sheep or a chicken? I really sucked at it, and would get upset because I would spend all my money on an animal, but not enough money on food to feed it, and they would always die. Tragic, I know. There's one particular point in the game, where you talk to the mayor, and he tells you to talk to him while holding an item? I remember doing that, but moments before interacting with the mayor himself, I ate the item which he asked for. And I thought that I had hard locked myself out of further progression, lol. Anyways, I never really touched that, or my 3ds after I began to grow up, and only this year, did I really start to think about my time playing on it. I remember being enamoured in the worlds that I could find. At that time, I had one of the things that had like a bajillion games on it. At some point I even played Call Of Duty on my 3ds, it was the game made for the original DS, but I didn't know anything lol. I remember playing Mario PVP with my brother, those were fun times. The pure joy that I had, when I was curious about the world. I remember playing metroid or something, and staying in the first level because I was scared of fighting the bad guys lol. I remember loving the wii things, where you could pair your 3ds with someone else's and you would get a puzzle piece or something? I LOVED that but was really sad because a lot of the time there was no one else with a 3ds. Honestly I might get another one, just to see.